Hmm .. I m thinking what to update in my blog .. Bcoz many ppl complaint that i hardly update my blog .. Dai lou ar, "ng sai zhou meh"? bz working ar .. :p
Hmm .. maybe can continue from the last blog that i posted here ..
I have made a decision to put down the past and continue my life as how i did previously .. The story and process of this was jz too complicated, long, and unhappy . So, don12 raise it out again . The most important thing is everything getting stable and it would be just fine . Peace. Cheers.
Sorry and thanks again for everything..
Nothing special to update for 1st week of Nov bcoz too bz working. But i would like to wish my didi(Bennyzai)
Happy Birthday !! (Again) hehe ..
Dai gor zai lo.. sang sang seng seng ya .. hehe ..
Wish you all the best in future ..
A tired weekend again - went to celebrate Benny's birthday (diner + club). After club, still chit chatting until morning only sleep .. (almost every Fri and Sat sleep at the morning . :X )
The next day, maybe too tired and had no plan, so just play mahjong with frenz until night then went for dinner. After dinner, we played a game that i never play after form 3 i think .. The Millionare. All of us play like a kid. Haha.. I still rmbr i quite good in playing this game last time. Who knows , i was the 1st one declared bankrupt . :-{
After the games, some fren went club again, but it was too late and i was tired that time, so i didn't join them and just stay at home and chit chat with Benny. This xiao didi , suddenly said want to buy some beer to drink. End up, we went 7-E to buy some beer and McD.. (about 2am sth i guess :s)
After one bottle of beer, maybe i too tired , yet the ppl asked me to buy beer ar, jz sit there online whole night, sien sei ngo.. End up, i fell asleep.
Sei zai bao, said me so early tired and sleep :s.. Leng zai , it was about 4pm ler.. should sleep de lo , haha..
Hmm, dunno what to write anymore. Going to finish up my drama "Ka hou Yuet Yuen". Damn nice .. hehe.
Good Nitez..zZzz..
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Sunday, November 2, 2008
What should i do ?!
These few days since Wednesday, i had no mood at all, down, couldn't even concentrate in working(although bz and alot of works), couldn't sleep well, couldn't stop myself keep on asking many things to make everything clear and decision to make, couldn't control myself to think what was happening .. And, couldn't stop myself to drink , stupid uh?
Since Wednesday, E had choose to tell me honestly what was happened few days ago. Becasue E didn't explain clearly and i was started to unhapppy that time, then i didn't want to continue the phone conversation. I called F as F knows what was happening and F explained everything that F knows to me. I was still really can't accept part of the mistake, but F advised me to give a chance to E and need to tell E, what is the limitation and must say out i really don't like ppl to do so. So, i talked to E and had dinner together. Everything was going fine and back to normal.
After dinner, i got to kno sth that i didn't know when i talk to E. E explained it by simplifying it. I didn't know it was happened like that. I was so down that point of time and drank beers alone at home and non stop smoking to make myself blur and drunk, so that i could just go off and sleep and do not need to think that much. During that time, i called F who the one that i really need that point of time. F had explain to me what things happened, why was it happened, and advised me to give E a chance if i still want to hold this as everyone does mistake. (i agree everyone does mistake but i don't really agree such a action under such a situation is normal for our "life"). I told E, i can't accept. End up, E came and find me to apologize and asked for a chance. I think back the advice that F gave and I did feel E apologize sincerely. I accepted the apologize.
The next day (Friday), i thought everything was going fine until i got to know one more thing that i had asked many time to B and E, and asked them to tell me honestly cos i HATE ppl lie. They said no, i trust them. The reason y the said no to me although i asked many many time , over and over again is they couldn't even remember that. Some ppl rmbr clearly, some ppl don't (so they said no). I was lost my direction and i didn't trust anyone of them at that point of time. I went back to work station, i told myself, i don't want to listen anyone of you de explaination and i need to work cos i got many works to do .. Until B sms and called me to declare everything. And i know, what happened, for the "one more thing" that i got to know on Friday jz a misunderstanding among our conversation.
Now i got to know everything from you guys (i m kind a person must know everything clearly before i can make any decision). Some of you might think i m stubborn, and why always make assumption, and why always think what i think is right (B was saying this to me , which i felt hurt deeply - cos B can't understand my feeling at that point of time, but i do not expect B can understand me well as we just know each other less than 3 months). Cos i just want to know everything clear and settle down everything.
After all, now i have to make decision if i can "put down" and accept back these 2 important person in my life which is i keep on thinking these 2 days. Now, i still dunno what to do, and what should i do. Anyone can tell me??.. I told B and E, to leave me alone few days to think about the decision. Until now.. i'm stil thinking nth.. Cos don't want to think..
Again, yest went to club and drank alot with frenz. This morning i wake up and write this blog, i feeling myself very stupid to make myself drunk so many days to avoid the problem and decision. Now, i really have to go and think bout it. I kno i can.
B (if u r here to read this) - Thanks for being so honest to me. And through the msn conversation that day, i know, how do u think about me - catch words, always make assumption and etc. I'm sorry if i really push u hard situation. One thing i ask for your understanding is , this is my 1st time having such conflict and i really lost my direction to understand and know the whole story. One last thing, i hope i can get your sincerely sorry too..
C (if u are here to read this) - Thanks for everything. I know u concern and worry about me. Really appreciate it. I didn't trust anyone of you at that point of time and i didn't blame you. Here, i want to apologize to u if you think i used to think that. One thing i ask for your understanding is , this is my 1st time having such conflict and i was lost my direction to trust anyone at that point of time. One good thing is , i got to know more about u since this happened. We are still very good fren, right? (Hopefully)
E (if u are here to read this) - As we spoke, i need time.. Give me sometime, i will tell you the decision. I know u feel sorry and regret sincerely from what you told me these few days and ask for a chance. But now, the prob is at my side to "put down". Maybe i really need time.
F (if u are here to read this) - Thanks for being there for me to tell and explain to me, to be my good listener and adviser. Thanks for everything. Now, it's only depend on my side. As you said, u always support me on the decision i make and always stand my side. Thanks !
Since Wednesday, E had choose to tell me honestly what was happened few days ago. Becasue E didn't explain clearly and i was started to unhapppy that time, then i didn't want to continue the phone conversation. I called F as F knows what was happening and F explained everything that F knows to me. I was still really can't accept part of the mistake, but F advised me to give a chance to E and need to tell E, what is the limitation and must say out i really don't like ppl to do so. So, i talked to E and had dinner together. Everything was going fine and back to normal.
After dinner, i got to kno sth that i didn't know when i talk to E. E explained it by simplifying it. I didn't know it was happened like that. I was so down that point of time and drank beers alone at home and non stop smoking to make myself blur and drunk, so that i could just go off and sleep and do not need to think that much. During that time, i called F who the one that i really need that point of time. F had explain to me what things happened, why was it happened, and advised me to give E a chance if i still want to hold this as everyone does mistake. (i agree everyone does mistake but i don't really agree such a action under such a situation is normal for our "life"). I told E, i can't accept. End up, E came and find me to apologize and asked for a chance. I think back the advice that F gave and I did feel E apologize sincerely. I accepted the apologize.
The next day (Friday), i thought everything was going fine until i got to know one more thing that i had asked many time to B and E, and asked them to tell me honestly cos i HATE ppl lie. They said no, i trust them. The reason y the said no to me although i asked many many time , over and over again is they couldn't even remember that. Some ppl rmbr clearly, some ppl don't (so they said no). I was lost my direction and i didn't trust anyone of them at that point of time. I went back to work station, i told myself, i don't want to listen anyone of you de explaination and i need to work cos i got many works to do .. Until B sms and called me to declare everything. And i know, what happened, for the "one more thing" that i got to know on Friday jz a misunderstanding among our conversation.
Now i got to know everything from you guys (i m kind a person must know everything clearly before i can make any decision). Some of you might think i m stubborn, and why always make assumption, and why always think what i think is right (B was saying this to me , which i felt hurt deeply - cos B can't understand my feeling at that point of time, but i do not expect B can understand me well as we just know each other less than 3 months). Cos i just want to know everything clear and settle down everything.
After all, now i have to make decision if i can "put down" and accept back these 2 important person in my life which is i keep on thinking these 2 days. Now, i still dunno what to do, and what should i do. Anyone can tell me??.. I told B and E, to leave me alone few days to think about the decision. Until now.. i'm stil thinking nth.. Cos don't want to think..
Again, yest went to club and drank alot with frenz. This morning i wake up and write this blog, i feeling myself very stupid to make myself drunk so many days to avoid the problem and decision. Now, i really have to go and think bout it. I kno i can.
B (if u r here to read this) - Thanks for being so honest to me. And through the msn conversation that day, i know, how do u think about me - catch words, always make assumption and etc. I'm sorry if i really push u hard situation. One thing i ask for your understanding is , this is my 1st time having such conflict and i really lost my direction to understand and know the whole story. One last thing, i hope i can get your sincerely sorry too..
C (if u are here to read this) - Thanks for everything. I know u concern and worry about me. Really appreciate it. I didn't trust anyone of you at that point of time and i didn't blame you. Here, i want to apologize to u if you think i used to think that. One thing i ask for your understanding is , this is my 1st time having such conflict and i was lost my direction to trust anyone at that point of time. One good thing is , i got to know more about u since this happened. We are still very good fren, right? (Hopefully)
E (if u are here to read this) - As we spoke, i need time.. Give me sometime, i will tell you the decision. I know u feel sorry and regret sincerely from what you told me these few days and ask for a chance. But now, the prob is at my side to "put down". Maybe i really need time.
F (if u are here to read this) - Thanks for being there for me to tell and explain to me, to be my good listener and adviser. Thanks for everything. Now, it's only depend on my side. As you said, u always support me on the decision i make and always stand my side. Thanks !
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
3 Days 4 Times Birthday Celebration ...
LoNG time never update my blog dy .. too bz in working .. Endless works .. Sienz...zZzz..
Well, i just had my 3 days 4 Times Birthday celebration and it was started at 23rd of Oct (non-stop celebration and activities, tiring but fun weekend) :-)
23rd Noon - went Italian restaurant with Coll to have my birthday celebration and had a long lunch.. hehe .. long time never have lunch together (in such a big group) due to the bz working life in my working place ..
23rd Night - Went Italian restaurant with BB (again - Italian foods :p) in KL area to celebrate my birthday. We ordered foods - 1 Penne Chicken Vodka Pasta, 1 Bresaola & Rucola Salad, 1 Parrigina Pizza (The pizza it too huge for 2 persons =s) and drink we had 1 Virtal Red and 1 Fruit Punch. We shared the foods and drinks and chit chat alot of things.. Then we left before 12am to somewhere to have the cake session. Who knows, we got the wrong way and ended up had the cake session in the car (traffic freaking jam that time too). Haha ..
24th Night - Had a great steamboat + drinking session birthday celebration with Frenz .. My Frenz prepared the celebration for me from buying foods until the end (included those "special present" .. haha..). After makan, we had drinking session and games .. There were alot of funny and crazy games during the session, everybody had fun .. Quite drunk that night but had fun .. haha ..
25th Night - Went "nga nga san" with another group good frenz, to celebrate my fren and my birthday together (we used to celebrate together too last year. Hehe ..) Thanks for the birthday present, i really like it. Dinner and chit chat is not enough for us as we hardly have gathering nowadays. So, we had decided to buy some beers and drink to my place and continue. Hehe .. During the drinking session, we played alot of funny and crazy games also. That night, i was really drunk after more than 7 Gin Tonic and beers. After all, they still ask me to go mamak yum cha, i was like... no energy .. Ended up, went there too. =S After mamak, straight away balik and sleep after shower .. zZzz ..
Hey Boyz and Gals,
Thanks for arranging and celebrating my birthday. I really appreciate and enjoy it . Happy .. :-) Again, thanks for having this for me.
P/s - Have wrote this quite long time after the party, but only post it today cos no time and no mood to online and post this these few days. Another blog coming up.
Well, i just had my 3 days 4 Times Birthday celebration and it was started at 23rd of Oct (non-stop celebration and activities, tiring but fun weekend) :-)
23rd Noon - went Italian restaurant with Coll to have my birthday celebration and had a long lunch.. hehe .. long time never have lunch together (in such a big group) due to the bz working life in my working place ..
23rd Night - Went Italian restaurant with BB (again - Italian foods :p) in KL area to celebrate my birthday. We ordered foods - 1 Penne Chicken Vodka Pasta, 1 Bresaola & Rucola Salad, 1 Parrigina Pizza (The pizza it too huge for 2 persons =s) and drink we had 1 Virtal Red and 1 Fruit Punch. We shared the foods and drinks and chit chat alot of things.. Then we left before 12am to somewhere to have the cake session. Who knows, we got the wrong way and ended up had the cake session in the car (traffic freaking jam that time too). Haha ..
24th Night - Had a great steamboat + drinking session birthday celebration with Frenz .. My Frenz prepared the celebration for me from buying foods until the end (included those "special present" .. haha..). After makan, we had drinking session and games .. There were alot of funny and crazy games during the session, everybody had fun .. Quite drunk that night but had fun .. haha ..
25th Night - Went "nga nga san" with another group good frenz, to celebrate my fren and my birthday together (we used to celebrate together too last year. Hehe ..) Thanks for the birthday present, i really like it. Dinner and chit chat is not enough for us as we hardly have gathering nowadays. So, we had decided to buy some beers and drink to my place and continue. Hehe .. During the drinking session, we played alot of funny and crazy games also. That night, i was really drunk after more than 7 Gin Tonic and beers. After all, they still ask me to go mamak yum cha, i was like... no energy .. Ended up, went there too. =S After mamak, straight away balik and sleep after shower .. zZzz ..
Hey Boyz and Gals,
Thanks for arranging and celebrating my birthday. I really appreciate and enjoy it . Happy .. :-) Again, thanks for having this for me.
P/s - Have wrote this quite long time after the party, but only post it today cos no time and no mood to online and post this these few days. Another blog coming up.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
WeddiNG..
Today is my two very good fren's wedding. I attended their wedding this afternoon. It made me recall quite alot of memories with them.
Bout my these two frenz, they started their relationship since secondary school. Many things happened in their relationship - had difficulties for being together, happiness, misunderstood, and etc.. Until today, i saw them having their wedding and going to start another new life in their relationship, i'm very happy with them and wish their love can last long forever.
Today, my 2nd time seen my this guy good fren cries.. I still rmbr the 1st time was at my secondary school time and bcos of this gal good fren too.. The difference is last time was bcos of the gal didnt want to choose him whereas today is bcos he is happy cos can finally get this gal as his wife and able to spend the rest of his life with the gal. Well done, dude! Cheers..
I still rmbr i sms my gal good fren few days ago before her wedding and talked alot bout our school time and their relationship. She said, "thanks for always be there for us, especially me when we have problems in our relationship, and i really wish that you can get your beloved one too soon." I was so happy and appreciate she said so. But, once i think bout relationship and i asked myself, "would i really can get the one? can it be last long?" Then i answered myself, "In fact, it's quite hard to get the right one and it's diffcult to maintain a relationship to make it last long, so just let it be naturally, haha.." (That's y i'm still single now, haha..)
Today, i get to know one thing.. but im not sure whether it's good or bad in the end.. Thus, i choose to keep it my heart. But, i m really thanks to the one that care bout me. Thanks.
It's getting late now. It's time to sleep lo..
Good Night..
Bout my these two frenz, they started their relationship since secondary school. Many things happened in their relationship - had difficulties for being together, happiness, misunderstood, and etc.. Until today, i saw them having their wedding and going to start another new life in their relationship, i'm very happy with them and wish their love can last long forever.
Today, my 2nd time seen my this guy good fren cries.. I still rmbr the 1st time was at my secondary school time and bcos of this gal good fren too.. The difference is last time was bcos of the gal didnt want to choose him whereas today is bcos he is happy cos can finally get this gal as his wife and able to spend the rest of his life with the gal. Well done, dude! Cheers..
I still rmbr i sms my gal good fren few days ago before her wedding and talked alot bout our school time and their relationship. She said, "thanks for always be there for us, especially me when we have problems in our relationship, and i really wish that you can get your beloved one too soon." I was so happy and appreciate she said so. But, once i think bout relationship and i asked myself, "would i really can get the one? can it be last long?" Then i answered myself, "In fact, it's quite hard to get the right one and it's diffcult to maintain a relationship to make it last long, so just let it be naturally, haha.." (That's y i'm still single now, haha..)
Today, i get to know one thing.. but im not sure whether it's good or bad in the end.. Thus, i choose to keep it my heart. But, i m really thanks to the one that care bout me. Thanks.
It's getting late now. It's time to sleep lo..
Good Night..
Friday, September 26, 2008
My Birthday Celebration?! So Early?!
Today is only 26th of Sept and my birthday will be the end of next mth, which mean it's bout one month to-go.
But today, very funny.. My manager asked my coll to buy a birthday cake and i supposed that cake is for my another coll who is having birthday today. Who knows, when i open the cake and i saw "Happy Birthday to Sept and Oct Birthday Babies" .. haha.. i cant tahan to laugh.. then i told my coll and boss, it's pretty long to go to reach my birthday, then they said nvm, this is the "pre" one 1st .. (maybe will have another one next month.. haha)..
Under such a funny situation, i just can make a quick wish and blow the candle.. so early de birthday cake and wish and blow candle session.. hehe.. 1st time in my life.. ever.. haha..
Just finish my closing work and report, it's bout 8pm now already.. Tired, sore throat..Going to have my dinner alone again , same like yesterday, hmm.. what to eat ler? hmm. think later la, ciaoz 1st la.. So tired..!!
But today, very funny.. My manager asked my coll to buy a birthday cake and i supposed that cake is for my another coll who is having birthday today. Who knows, when i open the cake and i saw "Happy Birthday to Sept and Oct Birthday Babies" .. haha.. i cant tahan to laugh.. then i told my coll and boss, it's pretty long to go to reach my birthday, then they said nvm, this is the "pre" one 1st .. (maybe will have another one next month.. haha)..
Under such a funny situation, i just can make a quick wish and blow the candle.. so early de birthday cake and wish and blow candle session.. hehe.. 1st time in my life.. ever.. haha..
Just finish my closing work and report, it's bout 8pm now already.. Tired, sore throat..Going to have my dinner alone again , same like yesterday, hmm.. what to eat ler? hmm. think later la, ciaoz 1st la.. So tired..!!
1st blog..
This is my 1st blog in this blog website..I got to know and create this blog from my frenz as they are doing the same thing - blogging.. (I'm blogging my 1st blog in office, sumore in this bz quarter closing period. haha)
The main reason i creating this blog and start blogging here is to express thinking , feeling and etc by writing them out instead of keeping them in my mind and heart.. It's sort of suffering feeling if we keep too much ourself.
Previously, i do like to talk to frenz, chat with frenz (only those close and very good frenz when talk and and share bout serious prob and sad stuffs - family, frenz and etc) and of course exciting stuffs. I still remember the time we spent to hang out, drinking session, sharing problems, clubbing, sing k, movie, lepak and many more..(Hey guys and gals, i missing you guys so much - now most of us bz working, some went Sing, some going oversea soon and hardly to get time together). >_<
Recently, i realised that sometime it's better to express your feeling by writing them out instead of telling or sharing with others. In fact, after graduated from university, i don't really hang out with my uni buddies, secondary and high school good frenz. Thus, things and life goes by without them, it's hard and difficult to share and tell sometime although we do hang out sometime. I do have a group of hang out frenz , knowing them in club, frenz's frenz and etc.. They are nice frenz, however, we seldom talk bout and share each other life and some of them are just frenz and some of them even just can be categorized as "hi-bye frenz"..But, we are still frenz..
LiFe?? I used to ask myself and yet i still keep asking myself , the meaning of life..Anyone can tell me, pls? You are please to share to me on this..
My life nowadays -
weekday : bz working, eat, go back home, online, drama, sleep (doing the same thing everyday)
weekend : sometime clubbing, sometime stay at home clean up room, drama again, online again, sometime just to hang out until make myself tired ,by then no need to think so much .. bout everything in my life..
Sometime, i think myself don't have life direction and unstable life in terms of financial, relationship , job and etc..
How could i have the better life which i can settle down myself ?! When?!
Still finding out..
Will try my best to have better life..Wish myself good luck..haha..
P/s It's time to stop blogging dy, else kena fired then will have the worse life instead. haha..
ByeBye..Ciaoz..
The main reason i creating this blog and start blogging here is to express thinking , feeling and etc by writing them out instead of keeping them in my mind and heart.. It's sort of suffering feeling if we keep too much ourself.
Previously, i do like to talk to frenz, chat with frenz (only those close and very good frenz when talk and and share bout serious prob and sad stuffs - family, frenz and etc) and of course exciting stuffs. I still remember the time we spent to hang out, drinking session, sharing problems, clubbing, sing k, movie, lepak and many more..(Hey guys and gals, i missing you guys so much - now most of us bz working, some went Sing, some going oversea soon and hardly to get time together). >_<
Recently, i realised that sometime it's better to express your feeling by writing them out instead of telling or sharing with others. In fact, after graduated from university, i don't really hang out with my uni buddies, secondary and high school good frenz. Thus, things and life goes by without them, it's hard and difficult to share and tell sometime although we do hang out sometime. I do have a group of hang out frenz , knowing them in club, frenz's frenz and etc.. They are nice frenz, however, we seldom talk bout and share each other life and some of them are just frenz and some of them even just can be categorized as "hi-bye frenz"..But, we are still frenz..
LiFe?? I used to ask myself and yet i still keep asking myself , the meaning of life..Anyone can tell me, pls? You are please to share to me on this..
My life nowadays -
weekday : bz working, eat, go back home, online, drama, sleep (doing the same thing everyday)
weekend : sometime clubbing, sometime stay at home clean up room, drama again, online again, sometime just to hang out until make myself tired ,by then no need to think so much .. bout everything in my life..
Sometime, i think myself don't have life direction and unstable life in terms of financial, relationship , job and etc..
How could i have the better life which i can settle down myself ?! When?!
Still finding out..
Will try my best to have better life..Wish myself good luck..haha..
P/s It's time to stop blogging dy, else kena fired then will have the worse life instead. haha..
ByeBye..Ciaoz..
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